bAcK tO rEaLiTy

Well, it's been almost two weeks since my last posting.  I feel off for a while.  Not like it matters since I have about 6 followers at most (i hope to change that soon).  I think I may have fallen into depression last week.  I got seriously down on myself because I had trouble with some pole work, I bruised up my entire body and I re-injured my weak ol' wrist, not to mention the bloating and pms which always relates to depression.  Ok so back to reality this week.  Fresh start, healthy eating, new attitude, more energy, STILL hurtin' wrist.  Can't win 'em all.  


So I got some advice from a friend that I should stop comparing my progress to other people, focus on myself, set some goals and not move on until I achieve them - in pole world of course.  I do tend to take on more than I can handle.  Example....3 (plus) classes per week leaving me tired, run down, cranky and frustrated.  But that's neither here nor there.  I took her advice and focused on one or two things and actually succeeded at them!!  Just in time for my workshops this weekend.  OH MY GOD...that's in 4 days!!!  I am going to be meeting so many great people this weekend at the competition and meet and greet tomorrow, this is all very exciting to me.  A new world filled with new people and new attitudes.  A newfound happiness if you will :-)


Ok but back to my bitching rant.  I am meeting Jenyne Butterfly who is not only awesomely talented, but teeny tiny and in crazy great shape, and Karol Helms, equally as talented and tiny and great unbruised shape...and then there's me.  Despite being a total amateur my legs just lost a 9 round heavy weight fight against Mike Tyson!  Exaggerating??  I think not - OUCH!!

I really want to know...when will this bruising subside?  I am going away in less than 2 weeks, less than one week after my workshops in which I know for sure I will abuse my legs!!!  All the arnica in the world won't help.  I bruise so easily so for me this is like triple the average human's bruise.  Good grief I get bruised when someone pokes me!!!  On FACEBOOK!!!  Help!  Please!  Although I am secretly very proud of my war wounds, I would like to be able to wear my new bikinis and dresses on vacation without having to wear opaque stockings underneath!! 


Enough of that crap.  I had a very productive aerial class tonight.  My wrist still hurts and now I think I pulled something in my shoulder, but I can't help but have a smile from ear to ear while in this class.  It's just so rewarding.  How many people can honestly say that they climb a silk rope or straddle a trapeze every week?!


Sorry for the boring and inconsistent rant, I hope to have more exciting stuff to add after this weekend!!!  Until then..happy poling, happy acrobating, happy bitching, happy bruising and HAPPY ST PADDYS DAY!!!!!